State of the BMS So almost everything pretty much sucks these days. I would like to take this opportunity to congratulate myself on this 3 month hiatus from working and also give a quick explanation of how much it sucks. It's one thing when you have a job thats pretty good and you enjoy going and even though there are some nuisannces that are all minor you deal with it and move on. It's another thing when you have no fucking job and you sit around on your ass all day and do nothing and get completely bored and depressed out of your skull all day. Today is the 3 month anniversary of me basically throwing away my job and moving 12 hours away. Don't get me wrong, nothing would have changed had I known what I know now. Well maybe a few things. I still would have moved with my girlfriend and have been completely supportive of her turn to do what she needs to do to get where she needs to be. I would have left my last job a little different. See, I left with this impression that I would still work for them from home. All the tasks that I had done at work, AND MORE, can easily be done outside of the office and the impression I had and was given before I left was that I would be able to do this and would receive work. Ehh. Not so fast. I've done about 70 hours of work in 3 months. That's pathetic. Have I made a mistake? Am I asking the wrong person to send me work? It was like scrapping teeth against a chalkboard to get them to even pay me for the first invoice I sent. I guess my impressions were wrong. Either that or they just don't care. I don't know. I remember my last day. I wrote them a fat check for my office computer and it was like, "we won't give you a exit interview cause you will still be working with us". Man, what I wouldn't give to be able to have that exit interview now and tell them what I really thought at the time. I just didn't have the thoughts organized. So I sit around. I'm looking hard for a new job. I'm hopefully going to get a job at Walmart or something. They usually need more help when it's the holiday season. I don't even care anymore. I've been sending my resume out to about 10 places a day. There are no jobs where I am in the field that I was in. So I've basically tossed that career out the window. Future employers could stumble upon this horribly pathetic page and read that I am pathetic and that I have no real ambition anymore and say, "well screw this guy, he's no good". All I know is that shit sucks, but I don't care. I don't need your pity, unless you want to write me a check to pay off my student loans. If you want to give me a job I'll be the best god damn worker you have now or will ever have. It's all I know. I've watched enough ESPN over the past 3 months to kill a small child. I'll have to post some bullshit so this gets moved farther down the page. Screw it, I'm out.  ¶ 11/13/2004 01:33:00 AM